OK, so before I forget, last week was our monthly weigh in. I haven't lost any weight, I am still at 143lbs, but I have been gaining muscle and losing inches! I lost an inch in my chest, arms, hips, and calves. Gained an inch in my thighs, but I think that's where most of the muscle is going to as I've been doing a lot of jogging. And the best part for me? I lost TWO INCHES IN MAI WAIST. This is fantastic! I've been sick the past few days so I didn't go to the gym, but I've had so much more stamina, and I have this love/hate relationship with my trainer, so I know he's doing a great job, especially with the results I'm getting.
I hope to be in the 130s by July. I'm stuck at 143, yes, but again, my thighs are full of awesome now. I've been doing squats every day for the past week. I used to not do them at all! Today I ran six laps around the gym. I actually RAN. (Usually I walk/jog for an hour) I hated every minute of it and felt like I was dying, but it was totally worth it. I was able to add that cardio to my regular strength training, which included squats, lifts, crunches, and curls, intermittenly. Tonight, I think I'm going to jump on our stationary bike and do my homework while pedaling. Being distracted really helps in staying with the exercise.
In other news....
I've been VERY depressed the past week or so. I could chalk it up to the fact that I've been sick, but I know it's much more than that. I've just been so stressed and worried about our future and everything that it entails, my mind can't process. The good thing, though, is that Mercury is no longer in retrograde, so my brain has stopped being stupid. It's a lot easier for me to express myself these past couple of days.
I had to have a talk with Lily about this. She has been a terror the past month or so, and it has a lot to do with how I've been treating her. She is a lot more senstive than I realized and I had to sit down with her and explain to her that I really do love her, it's just that I have a lot of going on in my head that makes me forget to tell her and show her just how much. So she and I made a deal. Whenever she feels neglected, she needs to tell me, so that we can spend a bit of one-on-one. It goes both ways. I will now tell her when I am feeling "very sad" so that we can hug it out. I know it sounds super cliché and almost kitschy, but it's the only solution I have that works for us. She and I are very physical people and sometimes we just want to be held.
I am so incredibly broke. I just checked my bank account to see if I could pay my trash bill, which is 45$, and I found that I only $7.38 *sigh* I'm going to go crawl into a small hole now. Well, it could be worse.