Finally got caught shoplifting, so I'm no longer allowed into any local Targets. On Tuesday I'm going to call my psych and see if they can do something about the urge. The security lady even told me I look zoned out, detached. She had apparently spoken to me once before, which I don't even remember.
I hope this gets taken care of. I'm addicted to the rush, but I don't want to go to jail. I feel so fucking stupid.